Friday, February 8, 2013

Our Work Here is Done... Dear God, We Need a Miracle!

The wait is on...the two week wait that is. As you all know, I was a little nervous earlier this week when I had a feeling ovulation was approaching and hubby was still out of the country. Want to hear something really crazy? Tuesday evening (CD17) I decided to do an extra test with OPK's in the evening. Low and behold this little guy showed his face at 6:43 pm....

Hot diggity dog! Perfect timing!

Even after all these months, the novelty of that damn happy face never wears off. It's like holding your mouth open while putting on mascara; It's an automatic physical response! You can't see that happy face and not smile yourself. 

I immediately ran to our shared online calendar to check what time hubby's plane landed that evening, and to my surprise it was the EXACT. SAME. TIME....6:43 pm. Not even kidding! That was just too ironic and little freaky actually. Meant to be? I'd sure like to think so!

Needless to say,  I was granted both of my wishes: We baby danced two of the most important days of the cycle AND I ovulated before CD20 on a natural cycle. Can I get a whoop whoop?  So I guess you can say "Our work here is done."  I'm opting to supplement during my luteal phase with 200mg Prometrium (progesterone) beginning at 3 days past ovulation. This will give me an extra boost of progesterone support for my endometrial lining, which can never hurt. It does mean however, that a period will not come on it's own as long as I'm taking it. I'll need to take a pregnancy blood test in 2 weeks to see if I become pregnant. If I'm pregnant, I just continue taking the Prometrium. If I'm not, then I discontinue it and a new cycle will start. 

Dr. Vaughn's IVF nurse called today to let me know he was going out of town in early March. Nurse Jamie said that he wanted to meet with us for a consult to discuss a plan going forward before he left. I felt my heart sink for a second thinking, "Wait a minute. Don't jump the gun! We may get pregnant this cycle!" Even though we know IVF is coming if this cycle doesn't work, and we've obviously already done buttloads of testing to make proper decisions surrounding IVF, it still took me by surprise to get that call and know WE MAY ACTUALLY BE DOING IVF IF THIS CYCLE DOESN'T WORK. Gasp!

The prospect became even more real in an instant, and I got a sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach. I don't know why it still feels so shocking to be facing that reality, but it kinda does. The nurse went ahead and scheduled an IVF consult for 2/25; AFTER we find out if this cycle worked or not and a few days before Dr. Vaughn's scheduled absence. We can of course cancel the apt. if needed. In the meantime, it's just a waiting game...plenty of meditation, yoga, visualization, and prayer happening over here.

Luckily I've been getting a few commercial auditions lately to keep me busy. Yesterday I had two. One was for a cheesy health college commercial. I get called in for these medical types of commercials occasionally, so I finally broke down and bought a set of scrubs to wear. Casting directors love it when you put some effort into an audition.  I know for a fact I've been beaten out by fellow actors showing up in full character, so I figured I'd go all out and try to land this one. Look how authentic I look! Can't you just see me in one of those cheesy ads at 2 AM?

If they don't book me, they are crazy right??

"You too can have a health career!" lol  My other audition was scheduled only 30 minutes later clear on the other side of downtown Austin by my scatterbrained....I mean GENIUS agent. I had to change outfits in my car to look like I was a gardening mom, tweak my make-up and hair to try to look ten years older, and haul ass to get to the hardware store audition.  I feel like I nailed both auditions, but you just never know what casting directors want. If you have a hair out of place, smile too much, smile too little, or say a certain word a certain way they don't like, you won't book the job. If I book, great! If not, at least hubby and I got a few good laughs at my scrubs get up. hehe

Volunteering and acupuncture today....both fabulous as always! It sure doesn't hurt that it's 80 degrees and sunny in Austin either. Makes for an awesome start to the weekend! No big plans really, except to go see the movie "Identity Thief" and spend time with my amazing hubby who leaves for business travel to San Fran again later this week.  I am dying to see this movie! Also hoping for some Sunday golf watching snuggle time.

Everything this cycle has been picture perfect in every aspect. I really could not have asked for a better cycle, especially following the wackiness that comes many times following an ectopic pregnancy and also the complications some other women have when doing an HSG. Indeed, my body has treated me well the past few weeks. The only thing left to do is stay positive and wait for (hopefully) good news in a couple weeks time. I'm sure I'll be a crazy impatient mess in about a week, but for now I'm enjoying this feeling of contentment, and I do BELIEVE with every fiber of my being this could be our cycle!

Tuesday, February 5, 2013

Operation Win A Baby...As Told by My Sister

You know you have been trying to conceive too long when even your family members begin developing hair-brained schemes to win you a baby. Ok, maybe hair-brained is a little extreme. Let me re-phrase...Creative!

When my older sister first approached me about trying to win me a baby via a FREE cycle of IVF from one of our nation's well respected reproductive endocrinologists, it showed me a couple things...

1) That baby craziness must be so contagious that other people's clocks start ticking on your behalf when it doesn't happen fast enough.

2) That only a sister can love you enough to pull a straight up 007 mission to impersonate you in hopes of winning you IVF. 

 
If you think this sounds a little cray cray, well welcome to my family and welcome to my life!  Hey, at least we aren't boring. I always said no matter what happens, I just don't want to be boring. After hearing my sister's re-cap of her attempt to help us via "Operation Win A Baby" I think she has also earned the rights to never being called boring for the rest of her life. We laughed for 20 minutes straight as she told me about her IVF crashing experience, and luckily for you she blogged about it too.

Make sure to check out her blog Inner Quelle Davida to read the condensed version. She just started blogging recently too, so make sure to leave her some love in the comments section. After all, she risked life and limb, not to mention being torn apart by wolves...I mean desperate infertile women, who could have blown her cover at any moment! 

And to my sister, who is the one person who knows me better than anyone else in this world,THANK YOU for providing us with something to laugh about for at least the next decade. This will certainly make for some good story telling in the years to come. Love you!

Monday, February 4, 2013

Back to Acu...Mission Re-Balance in Effect

Monday's are always better when you've been a "good girl" over the weekend. What qualifies being a good girl to me? For one, making it the entire weekend without consuming sugar. I was soooo tempted to hit Froyo but abstained. DH and I are very healthy eaters in general, but the weekends we typically let loose and indulge in the things we haven't had all week. He's out of the country on business, and I tend to do a little better when I'm solo...Admittedly, we are bad influences on each other sometimes!

A self proclaimed lifetime sugar addict, I have been known to wake up on Monday with a food hangover from the ice cream and cookies the night before. However, I'm trying to limit sugar, excess dairy and cold foods in order to keep a nice warm fertility friendly environment in my belly right now.

Secondly, limiting alcohol consumption....which I also did with only 1/2 a glass for the Superbowl yesterday. I actually dumped the other half out and switched to hot ginger tea instead. "Where is Emily and what have you done with her?!" you ask.  I'm still here. I'm just on a roll to re-balance at the moment, so happy hour will have to take a rain check.

Friday, I started back up with acupuncture. I stopped going for a while, because...

A) It's kinda pricey and when you add that to fertility treatments, it adds up!

B) I wondered how much more I could really clear my body after going for 9 months straight already. Then I got pregnant.

C) My acu treats me according to where I'm at in my cycle. During and following the ectopic I wasn't really sure where I was in an any sort of real cycle. I just felt so "on hold."

I've been having that still small voice in my head telling me to do more to actively re-balance again. In addition to pulling the eating reigns, acupuncture is how I do that best. My appointment was fantabulous as always! Melissa, my acu, is SO good at what she does. She specializes in fertility and pregnancy mostly and she doubles well as a therapist, because she's such a good listener and pays attention to every little detail.

She can look at my tongue, feel my pulse, and tell me exactly how fast or slow my digestion is, whether or not my body is holding onto "dampness"  and what types of energy and meridians can benefit from clearing. She can even assess where I'm having blockages based on my waking times throughout the night. I know this might be really hard to understand if you've never been to acu. I never really "got it" before I started going, but I'm a believer now! 

During my treatments, Melissa always gets excited when she sees stagnation released from certain meridians. She can tell this when the session is over and she removes the needles. If there are points which "release" they will give off a tiny drop of blood. In Chinese medicine, this is evidence that blockages have been released. Practitioners can even tell how old the stagnation is by the shade of the blood.

I had two major releases: the conception vessel and spleen meridian. Melissa said she was not shocked by this, because following an ectopic pregnancy, it would make sense that my conception meridian needed cleared. My body was holding onto that energy for so long and it was a very long drawn out process ending the ectopic. The points connected to the conception meridian released dark old looking blood, and she said this was very good to see.

Melissa also wasn't surprised I had release through the spleen meridian, because this is directly tied to digestion. At the beginning of my appointment she knew my digestion was slowed that day just by analyzing my tongue's slight coating, and that's why she treated me for stagnation in the spleen meridian. Sure enough, during the treatment I could feel major movement happening in my digestive system, and the minute I got home following the treatment, I was able to "fully clear" the stagnation...twice within a few hours in fact. Sorry if that's TMI, but I'm just trying to illustrate concrete examples of how I know this stuff is legit.

I am a skeptic about anything until I've researched it and seen proof that is actually helps, and acu treatments have proven time and again that they are worth it for me in so many areas. Outside of fertility issues, Melissa has also helped treat me for insomnia, anxiety, and headaches....all of which I've seen improved after treatments. I don't know if I'll ever fully understand how it works, but all I know is that it does!

I've also re-started my  Circle + Bloom daily meditations along with warm castor oil packs and fertility yoga. Doing these really helps force me into daily relaxation. Luckily, it was sunny and 70's weather all weekend long too, which always helps me feel happy and balanced. I was in the sun as much as possible and it felt great! Weather has been absolutely gorgeous in Austin lately!

I pulled weeds and detailed my ride outside while Jazzy held down the fort inside...

Jazzy needs is a pair of shades and a mini margarita in hand. lol


This picture cracks me up, because all day long she was sunning her arms while she shaded her face. She would lay in her cubby until she got too hot, then would move to our bedroom floor for a breather in full shade, then return to the sun...like mother like daughter. haha! It was so flippin cute!

As I mentioned, dear hubby is out of the country on business. I'm starting to see signs of ovulation impending, but still no positive OPK as of this morning thankfully! For the past 19 months I've prayed every single month for an earlier ovulation (before CD20), but this is one month I would like it to wait at least a couple days from now! It's CD16 today, and I've never ovulated before CD18 during a natural cycle. Let's just hope that doesn't change now while he's out of town!

I feel like this is really a great cycle so far. I had a very healthy menses to start it off. I had an easy and totally clear HSG. I'm seeing egg white cervical fluid in small patches now, which doesn't always happen for me. I'm doing great with meditating and staying centered, and I'm in a very balanced place emotionally considering.  Everything's just lining up perfectly. Now if the OPK's can just hold off long enough for my husband to get back, I think we'll be set!

I really want this to be our pre-IVF savior cycle. Please pray with me that God will bless us with a miracle this month.  I don't think I've ever wanted something so badly in all of my life!

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Excuse my Food Tangent....MTHFR Verdict is In

Just when we thought we'd make it out of this crazy cold season unscathed, hubby must have picked something up on his last stint of traveling. He's over the hump already, but I'm working pretty hard at not catching whatever "it" is. Needless to say, every bed sheet, blanket, and throw pillow that he's touched is getting washed right now. Taking a little breather to talk to my awesome blogosphere friends while sipping a cup of this...


Add a little stevia and you're golden.

I've never considered myself a huge ginger fan, but it's probably because the first experience I had with it was a much too generous helping on the side of an unsuspecting Asian dish. Without warning, I took a huge bite and proceeded to turn bright red, eyes watering, like something straight out of a cartoon. If you've ever swallowed a huge ass piece of ginger like that you know, it's too late....there is no rewind button for that! I learned my lesson and have been brave enough to find other ways of enjoying it in smaller amounts. This tea is the bomb! And yes, it really does help with digestion! Ginger is supposed to have many beneficial "warming properties" according to Chinese medicine and also helps to clear out phlegm and assist in a less hostile environment where sperm and egg meet.

I've been drinking a cup everyday along with huge spinach salads full of raw veggies. I've been in major cleansing and rebuilding mode following the methotrexate injections for the ectopic. That stuff robs your body of folate. I'm on a mission to rebuild right now with lots of folate rich foods, like wheat germ in my hot oat bran every morning and spinach salads everyday for lunch. I am a total copycat and stole this salad idea from the Costco deli after falling in love with theirs, and now I just make my own at home. I don't think I could ever get sick of these...

Spinach salad w/ red onions, grape tomatoes, hard boiled egg, grilled chicken,
black walnuts, dried cranberries, grated parmesan & lemon poppyseed dressing

Are you hungry yet? While we're on the topic of favorite foods, my other addiction this week has been carrot chips. Oh em gee! These are sooooo good, and I've been snacking on them between meals, with meals, anytime I just want to reach for something.

Salty + Sweet = heavenly snacking

There are only 120 cal & 6 g fiber in 3/4 cup and only 3 ingredients (carrots, non-hydrogenated canola oil, sea salt). How many other chips can say that? I am so addicted it's not even funny! I'm salivating now, so excuse me while I grab a handful.  :)

I actually came on here to blog about my Counsyl genetic counseling phone consult but clearly just went off on a food tangent. Thanks for bearing with me! I should probably update on the fertility front while I'm here...

Yesterday morning, I had my phone consult with the Counsyl genetic counselor. They offer this for FREE when you have the testing done. I've got to say I was uber impressed with my counselor Beth's knowledge. Apparently she had twelve years of experience in a prenatal genetic testing setting prior to working with Counsyl and I could tell by the way she was answering my questions. I understood most all of the report reading it on my own, which I talked about in my previous blog, but I did have some concerns still regarding the MTHFR diagnosis.

Beth told me that this diagnosis is somewhat controversial and that there was a great deal of hype about it in the early 2000's, including some opposing findings on pregnancy loss. She said that while it is true many people with MTHFR do lose pregnancies, what they know now is that it may not be THE CAUSE of the losses. In reality many people who have MTHFR might also have other clotting factors/autoimmune issues present. The rate of pregnancy loss in the general public is high as it is, and so is the fact that 1 out of 3 people are carriers of MTHFR. It's virtually impossible to isolate MTHFR on it's own saying it's "the cause", due to the common occurence in individuals who bear other conditions. It would be inaccurate to say "Emily lost the baby because she has MTHFR and wasn't treated", when in reality, I do have the presence of 3 blood clotting disorders known as well. So, many of the studies regarding MTHFR are somewhat flawed, because they ultimately show a relationship of correlation and not necessarily causation.

Counselor Beth also said that someone with a mild diagnosis of MTHFR and no other known issues would not need to necessarily take blood thinners during pregnancy. It's only when the other clotting factors are present that this would be necessary, because having a mild form of MTHFR on it's own is not going to cause your blood to clot or cause pregnancy loss.

What MTHFR can do in various combinations is to block the absorption of folic acid in SOME people, not all.  In my case, she kept reiterating how this was a mild condition. I asked if I should have my folate levels checked and she said NO. A more reliable way to tell if your body is able to absorb folic acid properly is to have homocysteine levels checked. This is a better indicator if you are absorbing folic acid properly or if you have anything to worry about.

Luckily I just had my homocysteine level checked as part of my RPL (Recurrent Pregnancy Loss) blood panel, and my level was 6.3 on a scale (5-12). I'm so glad I had that test done by the way! It's nice and low which shows the MTHFR is NOT affecting my ability to absorb folic acid, and further proof that my diagnosis is really not much to worry about. It's when homocysteine levels are elevated, that there could be cause for concern. As I mentioned in my previous blog, some dr.'s do advise taking Lovenox and aspirin upon pregnancy as a precaution for the MTHFR condition, especially when paired with other blood clotting factors. I'm already taking baby aspirin daily and have my script for Lovenox ready to go the minute I find out I'm pregnant, so I'm all set there. 

So, I guess you can say I'm not going to worry my pretty little head about the whole MTHFR thing. I'm not an expert on MTHFR by any means, so if you have this condition please seek your own medical advice in relation to the combination of enzymes you possess and the severity of your diagnosis based on your own individual circumstances. As for me, I'm glad to know it's there, but also glad to know it's really not going to change my protocol when it comes down to it. Going on with business as usual here!

I did inquire about hubby's abnormal 45x, 46xy karyotype as well for a second opinion after the last genetic counselor couldn't give us many answers. Counselor Beth basically said she unfortunately had the same feedback...that this karyotype is one of those things that "just may or may not affect anything." She said she wouldn't necessarily recommend doing PGS with our IVF based only on the fear of passing down this abnormal karyotype.  She did, however, suggest that PGS could be very beneficial for us solely based on my age of almost 35. She talked about the aging of eggs, the prevalence of chromosome abnormalities, rate of miscarriage, Down's Syndrome and other trisomy conditions. She said that age and risk factors such as these would be the larger reason for choosing to have PGS done on our embryos and NOT hubby's chromosome analysis.

This means we've had 2 professional genetic counselors now tell us that it's basically "up to us" if we want to do PGS with our IVF. We know that PGD is clearly not needed now that we've done all of the genetic testing, but PGS still remains a personal decision. We will continue thinking on this and discussing it. I haven't even priced the entire PGS procedure as an add on to IVF either, but at this point it's not about money for us...it's about doing what is best and having the best probable rate of a successful pregnancy.

Of course, we are still praying for a miracle this month to avoid IVF altogether, so please keep us in your prayers as we give it our best shot. Fertility Friend is predicting ovulation in about 7-10 days, so we'll see if it's right. Testing with OPK's begins tomorrow!

Tuesday, January 29, 2013

HSG Clean as a Whistle...We are Cleared for Take-Off!

Good news came from Dr. Vaughn's office yesterday. My HSG results came back and we are clear for take-off!  The nurse said the HSG showed the same slight uterine septum that has always been present, but other than that no scarring in my tubes or uterus. Many RE's do an HSG following an ectopic pregnancy to see if it reveals any new damage or structural issues, but many also require it before proceeding with IVF. If you have blocked tubes with hydrosalpinx fluid leaking out of them, this can cause unsuccessful IVF, so that's one major reason why they require the HSG (or one of many other tests that looks at the fallopian tubes).

While I am over the moon happy that I don't have any major blockages or scarring, I'm still confused on why I had an ectopic pregnancy to begin with. Here, I have a test showing that my tubes are "open" but for some reason I had an embryo that implanted in there and wouldn't come out!

The more I read on the topic, the more I realize that...

A) It's a complex process for a fertilized embryo to travel out of the fallopian tubes.
B) Sometimes it just happens, and I may never know the true cause with 100% certainty.


Even though the HSG didn't show any detectable damage in my tubes, there could be something microscopically small there preventing safe passage of an embryo (like mild endometriosis, etc.) that just doesn't show up on the HSG. Likewise, the HSG could have flushed out anything really small that was blocking my tube(s) prior to the test. It doesn't take anything very big to block something the size of a grain of sand (like an egg or embryo) from passing through, so there's no telling.  Either way, they're pretty darn clear right now following the Spring cleaning that just took place. Ha!

Many RE's say that fertility is increased following an HSG, because it basically flushes out your lady parts and removes anything getting in the way of things flowing smoothly. I am actually a believer of this. Following my first HSG in 2011, I became pregnant the first cycle following the procedure.

The HSG seemed to make me fertile myrtile once before, and there's always a chance it could work again. We were given the official go ahead to being trying to conceive again!  If we want to try this month, it will have to be naturally, because I'm already on CD10. It would be too late to start a medicated cycle this month, and trying on our own is our only option if we'd like to try right away.

We realize we have an increased risk of a repeat ectopic (20%) trying naturally, but we both really want to give it another shot before moving onto IVF...especially since the HSG seemed to do something for us the only other time we became pregnant. Plus, we feel we are emotionally ready. I can't even tell you how happy it would make us to become pregnant with a HEALTHY pregnancy ON OUR OWN and save ourselves the physical and emotional rollercoaster, not to mention $15-$20K for one cycle of IVF. Let's just say I'm going to be praying A LOT in the coming weeks that we can somehow miraculously conceive on our own this cycle!

I saw something Joel Osteen posted on his facebook page today and it was exactly the reminder I needed...


It's taking a lot of faith for me to believe it CAN actually happen for us on our own with no medication and no doctors this month. I know this is basically a last ditch effort to try again naturally, seeing how it hasn't worked soooo many times before, and we've had so many setbacks. But you know what? I do believe in miracles. I believe that God wants us to have a family and be happy. Maybe He wants to use this one last try to show us just how powerful and compassionate He truly is. And if not, at least we have other options available. All I can do is focus on what my heart wants more than anything else in this world right now and believe it IS possible.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Counsyl Test Results & Onto HSG #2!

Well that was quick! 1.5 weeks after we mailed off our samples for the Counsyl Genetic Testing our results are already in. I wasn't sure what to expect, but I am soooooo glad we did the test, if for nothing else but to have peace of mind and to know whether or not we should entertain the idea of doing PGD with IVF. We were tested for more than 100 diseases.

Here are the results...

Hubby: Carrier of Cystic Fibrosis (Kinda crazy!)
             Carrier of HFE- Associated Hereditary Hemochromatosis
             Carrier of MTHFR deficiency

Me: Carrier of HFE- Associated Hereditary Hemochromatosis
       Diagnosis of MTHFR
       NEGATIVE for Fragile X Syndrome


Ok, so what does all this mean? I have yet to do my follow-up phone consult with the Counsyl rep, and we'll also be speaking with a clinical geneticist in the coming days (just for a second opinion), but I believe I understand the Counsyl results pretty well.

In short, this DNA testing looks for recessive diseases. We can all be carriers of recessive diseases without actually passing the disease down. In fact, for all of the recessive diseases except Fragile X, BOTH parents need to be carriers of a particular disease to have increased risk for passing it down. My heart skipped a beat for a couple seconds when the nurse told me hubby was a carrier for Cystic Fibrosis, but it really doesn't mean much because luckily I'm not a carrier.  Phew! We would both have to be carriers in order to have a really high risk of passing it down. Watch this short VIDEO from Counsyl where they explain how all this works. 

You'll notice we are indeed both carriers for HFE though. You have probably never heard of this and neither had I until I read about it.  It's basically a common inherited disease where the body absorbs too much iron. It's totally treatable and not a huge deal at all. Now that we know we are both carriers for HFE, we may want to have any children tested for it early on so as to avoid complications later in their lives, but other than that, nothing life threatening to worry about.

Then there is MTHFR (a.k.a. the MoTHerFuckeR among infertility circles). Yes, I am serious. Ha! Being just a carrier (like hubby) probably doesn't mean much. 40% of the US population carries the mutation for MTHFR, but only 10-12% of Americans actually have the condition. I got to be the unlucky one here, because yet again I fall into the small percentage of people who have it. Why exactly is this thing such a motherfucker? Well, when someone has certain mutation pairings like the ones I have occurring simultaneously (heterozygous C677T & A1298C) it is associated with a 2-3 fold higher risk of having a child with severe neural tube defects such as spina bifida.

Taking folate supplements helps lower this risk, but my understanding is that people with MTHFR also can't absorb synthetic folic acid. This means I can't just take any ole prenatal. I need to take those which are made from naturally occurring folate. Luckily I have been taking New Chapter Organic Perfect Prenatals for the past 1.5 years, and they are derived from whole organic foods, so I should be good there. I also eat a ton of spinach and other veggies and grains high in natural folate, so hopefully that helps. Many times those with MTHFR are recommended to take baby aspirin and Lovenox during pregnancy as well....again, things I am already planning on doing due to my other autoimmune/clotting factors.

There is a lot more to know about MTHFR, because there are many different mutations and combinations. The diagnosis ranges from mild to severe, and the implications can be vastly different. From what I understand I have a mild diagnosis, and the fact that it's heterozygous MTHFR (meaning I have only one copy of each gene mutation) is good. When someone has homozygous MTHFR (two copies of the same mutation) and more severe forms, it can become even more problematic...from what I understand. Don't quote me on all this MTHFR stuff.  For now, I'll just keep eating folate rich foods, taking my prenatals, and see what the geneticist recommends.

The good news is that I was found NOT to be a Fragile X carrier. This disease is linked to many learning and behavioral disorders including autism, and Counsyl only tests the woman for it. It's passed down differently than any other recessive disease, and there's no cure for it. It's one that can also present in many forms ranging from mild to severe, but I don't have it and risk of passing it down is slim to none, so nothing to worry about there.

All in all, I feel like the news is good and I'm taking a huge sigh of relief! As just a lay person interpreting these results, this tells me that there is absolutely no reason why we would need to do PGD (Pre-Implantation Genetic Diagnosis) with our IVF. We don't have any substantial risks for passing down any life threatening diseases, so there's no reason to do PGD. This test really gave me peace of mind since I don't know half of my family history.

We are still contemplating doing a smaller scale PGS (Pre-Implantation Genetic Screening) however, which would just screen for chromosomal abnormalities (Down's Syndrome, etc.) This is something we plan to speak with the clinical geneticist about. You may remember we already spoke with a "genetic counselor" a while back about our chromosome analysis and hubby's abnormal 45x, 46xy karyotype, but to be honest...we want a second opinion. Neither of us felt very confident with the counselor's ability to answer our questions to our satisfaction and I'd rather speak with someone more qualified with an MD at the end of her name.

This clinical geneticist specializes in multiple areas that could affect us (cancer risk, prenatal counseling, pregnancy loss, birth defects, genetic conditions, etc). She is supposed to be THE WOMAN in Austin to speak with on these things, so I kind of wish we went to her to begin with instead of the last mediocre genetic counselor we were referred to. However, now that we've got our chromosome results AND our Counsyl results, we'll make an apt. with Dr. Ladonna Immken to speak in-depth about the whole kit and kaboodle. I'm sure we'll feel extremely confident understanding our risks and course of action once we speak to her, and we can finally close the book on all the genetic testing and risk assessment.

The really cool thing is that our testing is done now and our DNA will never change! Even though it's been some work to find out all of this information, we now have a full picture of what we're made of and that won't change when we conceive baby #1, #2, and who knows maybe #3? Hey, you never know! It's so nice to know we don't have risks to pass down anything too crazy. It's a personal decision, but I would highly recommend doing the Counsyl Testing to anyone who is curious to know their own risks.  I'm glad I found out about the MTHFR if nothing else, because that alone is very important to know for anyone trying to conceive!

Sooooo, that was yesterday's news. Today, I had my HSG (hysterosalpingogram) to assess the inside of my fallopian tubes and uterus following the ectopic pregnancy and prior to IVF. For anyone who doesn't know, this is a test where they insert a catheter directly into your cervix and shoot dye up through your lady parts. I know you are so jealous of my fun Friday afternoon!  I was all nervous, because of the ectopic... I wondered if anything new would be present, blocking my tubes, and I was scared it could be painful. This is one test you just hear so many different things about. Some women say they just feel slight cramping and others say the pain is unbearable and excruciating. I covered my bases and took a Vicodin an hour beforehand just in case.

I also requested the same female technician who did my HSG in 2011, since I had a good experience with her already. Low and behold, the whole test took less than 2 minutes tops. I watched as the dye shot right through both sides of my tubes and spilled into my uterus. I did not feel a thing, not even the slightest cramp! I will of course wait for the final word from the radiologist and Dr. Vaughn, but everything looked pretty normal to the tech and to me as we watched the monitor. I'm really interested to hear Dr. Vaughn's feedback and will hopefully hear from him by Monday.

I did ask the technician why women have such vastly different experiences with the HSG. She said it can be a number of reasons, including if someone has blockages...it can hurt to really try to push that dye through when something is in the way obviously. However, she said a big factor is the medical devices they use. She said because she's a woman, she knows to choose the smallest equipment she possibly can. She uses the tiniest speculum she can and she also uses a "5 French catheter" which is apparently the smallest one they can use for this procedure. She said many times if it's a male tech or someone who just doesn't care much, they will use a "7 French catheter" and it can make a big difference for some women's comfort. Very interesting! So, if you're someone who's had a bad HSG experience or if you're about to have your first one done, it might be worth requesting a female tech, and no matter what request the 5 French catheter if you can. I'll definitely make a mental note of that myself!

If you are still reading God bless you. I am tired just writing about all of this testing, and doubly tired of doing it. We are getting closer to being done with it all and REALLY ready to start IVF! Hubby has been on biz travel for 6 days this week and returns tonight. I for one, will be soooo happy to take a break from all things medical this weekend and just kick back with my sweetheart. I wonder if you can overdose on bubble baths and jazz?

Tuesday, January 22, 2013

Celebrities Dish on Infertility

One of the most difficult parts about receiving a diagnosis of infertility is the lack of awareness and support for those of us affected. The general lack of knowledge in the public and private sectors directly affects people's ability to get access to the care they need. Why? Well, infertility was only recently recognized as a disease beginning in 2009, and up until now it's largely been something that "people just don't talk about."  As someone with a 91 year old grandma who had 7 surgeries to repair her female reproductive system in the 1940/50's and was ultimately still unable to successfully conceive a child of her own, I can assure you infertility was around much earlier than 2009! It just hasn't been a topic that is important enough for our society to visit.

Incorrectly so, many couples are ashamed of the fact that they can't procreate as easily as others. Even though 12% of childbearing aged couples in the US are affected by infertility, we are still in the minority, and this issue has not been a priority for policy makers, employers or medical insurers. Personally, I feel like the largest missing piece to this puzzle is awareness; What is infertility? Who is affected? What can be done about it?  And unfortunately, as much as I write to my congress people (which I have done multiple times by the way) and as much as I support initiatives and sign petitions for medical coverage of infertility, sometimes there is nothing more powerful than a "shout out" from a celebrity who's been affected.

There have been plenty of celebrities in the past who have used IVF, egg donation, and surrogacy who have chosen NOT to talk about it. Kelly Preston, for instance, became pregnant at age 47 and has always been tight lipped about her miraculous pregnancy, even appearing on a talk show recently stating how "easy it was" to be pregnant at 47. This is where I become a little irritated, only because more than likely she used A.R.T. (Assisted Reproductive Technology).  I don't need to go to medical school to know she likely either had frozen eggs/frozen embryos of her own OR that she could have used donor eggs with IVF to become pregnant "so easily" at that age. Then again, maybe she's the second coming of the Virgin Mary and I don't know what the hell I'm talking about. Not my place to judge I suppose, but I just feel it sends such a confusing message when you want to talk about how great and easy it is to be pregnant at age 47 publicly, but you don't want to talk about the inconvenient parts of what it took to get there. Believe me, I understand wanting to keep things private, but to kind of then gloat about it "being so easy" at age 47 is like a slap in the face if you DID in fact need a little help. I don't care who you are or how tough you are, IVF and other fertility treatments are no walk in the park. There are many reasons young men and women are waiting longer and longer to start families, and a misinformed view of what can actually be achieved naturally is being perpetuated by the multitude of 40+ celebrity pregnancy stories flooding the media. I just wish more celebrities would be open about how all of these so-called miraculous 40+ pregnancies are actually occurring....with the help of science.

However, I have to commend the celebrities who have chosen to open up about their infertility struggles and use of A.R.T.  People like Marcia Cross, Elizabeth Banks, Celine Dion, Brooke Shields, Cindy Margolis and others have my sincerest THANK YOU.   I don't think it's the job of celebrities to be educating patients on what to expect entirely by any means, but too many women are being caught off guard when they reach their 30's and 40's and then find out they have many more roadblocks to creating a family than they thought possible, in large part BECAUSE OF the skewed info out there. Furthermore, only when infertility becomes more of a mainstream discussion, will people become more comfortable with fighting for the types of initiatives they want to see endorsed by their employers, their health care plans, and legislation. I'm obviously not scared to talk about what we've gone through, and I'd love to see more people to talk about it!!!

In addition to the women who have stepped forward to talk over the last decade, now more men are finally starting to open up too. In just the past week, I've seen two male celebrities talk openly about their own struggles with infertility. Hugh Jackman spoke yesterday on Katie Couric's talk show about he and his wife's failed IVF attempts, recurring miscarriages and adoption. Last week on The View, Tom Arnold opened up about his extremely low sperm count and inability to conceive with multiple partners, before finally having successful IVF at age 53 with his current wife (watch the video clip at minute 1:35 where he talks about it). BIG FAT KUDOS to hearing these men speak up and shed some honest light on the issue...especially the ones who are confident enough to talk about MFI (Male Factor Infertility).  That takes a lot of balls, even if they are undescended! ;)

In our own real life, we've only had the pleasure of meeting a couple other people who have undergone fertility treatments. In those moments, it's quite refreshing to hear someone else's husband throw out the term IUI like it's just part of regular conversation without even batting an eye. It makes me feel just a little less alien for a brief moment in time. My hope is that more celebrities, including male celebrities, will speak up. We need more awareness on this topic, and even if it's America's least favorite Kardashians who are opening up about it, at least the topic is becoming something that people are now talking about more openly little by little.

Do you think celebrities have any moral obligation whatsoever to discuss their infertility struggles?

Do you think celebrity voice affects how infertility is viewed and/or the types of resources we offer people in this country?

Do you think the typical media coverage of 40+ pregnancies is misleading in any way(s)?