Well, here goes nothing! After thinking about it for many months, I've decided to start a blog where I can share my feelings about TTC (Trying To Conceive) and anything else I'm inspired to write about. Anyone who knows me, also knows that food is guaranteed to make an appearance before too long. I've been trying a lot of new things lately: acupuncture, Chinese herbs, reading books, fertility friendly foods, meditation, voodoo chants....the usual stuff fertility challenged people do when TTC'ing, so there should be no shortage of things to write about.
We started out on the journey of seriously TTC back in July 2011, after almost 3 years of "not preventing" pregnancy. I knew there was an issue when obviously not becoming pregnant during this time, and sought the help of my OB and later an RE (Reproductive Endocrinologist). I was diagnosed with "unexplained infertility" and was put on a fertility drug called Clomid, which helps women ovulate. Well, I'd like to petition the pharmaceutical companies to call this medicine what is really is, CloMAD....at least that is what it made me. Let's just say I did NOT like fertility medicine one bit. Plenty of women have had success with this drug mind you, but it has some horrendous side effects, all of which I would prefer not to experience ever again in my life....more on that later.
I decided to stop taking fertility medicine and actually got pregnant the very next month, only to miscarry shortly after. I was absolutely heartbroken, and truth be told, am still dealing with some very raw emotions from that experience. It has been quite a roller coaster to say the least. Never in my wildest dreams could I have imagined the ups and downs this past year has brought; from the endless diagnostic testing, to the unanswered questions, to the many unexpected feelings that I now know are commonplace among women diagnosed with infertility.
I am still telling myself that somehow the dr.'s are getting it all wrong, and that's I'm not really infertile. However, as time marches on, and a little one has yet to make an appearance, I've also got to be realistic with the issue at hand. For now, I'm using a lot of Eastern medicine approaches to re-balancing my body's hormones so that I can hopefully conceive and carry a healthy pregnancy to term without the need of chemical laden, crazy lady inducing fertility meds. JUST RELAXING is not going to get me pregnant I'm afraid. Voo doo chants might not either, but at this point I'm willing to try them. ;)